Crossing the Threshold

We are here and it is now. Further than that, all human knowledge is moonshine.” ~ H. L. Mencken

We may stand peering across the ocean without expectation and all the while reaching out wanting to touch the answer. We’ve waited to hear it and have given up waiting, having listened for a life time for just the ‘right’ words. All the words that tumble from our lips with such ease are not it. They too sink into the abyss enveloped by the silence. Stillness makes sense; shakes me loose from this long established perception that the horizon is a line between the earth and the sky.

And sometimes when I sit with you, hear you tell me about the various complexities of life that create this feeling of ‘going no where’ I want to show you that the door for you, is always open; that you can cross that threshold as easily as you inhale and exhale. If you follow the breath you will find your self exactly where you want to be without anxiety, worry or unnecessary drama. The inhale and exhale happen and have nothing to do with the mind. Our movement through life, our living life, has nothing to do with the mind. The mind relishes the past. All of our thoughts are based on the past. Judgment rises from what we think we know. Glorious the moment that I know ‘nothing’ then, I appreciate the moment, observe it without thought; come to rest.

This instant is beyond time. Time is also a notion of the mind. The mind is also a notion, like a wave rising from the ocean. That ocean of eternal peace is you. What is the difficulty that we suffer from? It is that we seek peace elsewhere and do not experience that we are peace incarnate itself.” ~H.W.L. Poonja (Papaji)

Listen, as you stand in this moment open to all directions and bending to the wind. I am a tree, not minding as thoughts shake loose and are scattered, skipping along the pavement no matter what the season. Their imminent demise a liberation.

Listen, as the rain becomes a torrent. Together we cascade over earth and rock. I am the rock, the mountain; standing oblivious to the earth that rises to a peak, to touch the sky, imperial blue, I am the sky. No matter the direction I face nor the element I meet, ‘That’ I am and all joyfully descending to the sea where silence quenches my thirst. I drown in ‘not knowing’ and relinquish the thought, I am not ‘This’.

I peer into this large breakfast bowl filled with bits of this and that and see the world swimming there. There is harmony in spite of all the various shapes and sizes, differentiation of color, all united, all destined for ingestion and integration. Oblivious though to the ‘process’ of ingestion and integration.

Simply floating in the sea from which they arise. ‘We’ are the observers observing our selves and rest in knowing That.

With these eyes I see that all that passes before me are expressions of something that the mind cannot comprehend. Yet the mind interprets—we need not listen to mind. With these ears we hear a symphony. The mind wants to analyze. If we focus on any particular instrument or a specific segment we may lose the magic and the mystery of the whole. Let the mind come to rest and we miss nothing, All continues to unfold with grace.

In the summer months when there may be many moments of gazing at the ocean and deeply immersing oneself in infinite possibility, often there is a loss of identification with the body mind, the self, and a sense of Being, peace and oneness. The line of separation between all things melts and we are free!

May we embrace the moment and fall into silence.

 

There is Only Love, Welcome to the New World

Only by Love, only by Loving
Can you maintain the sense of Love and Peace.
Then emotions and fear will not dominate you
Because you are Love.
When in Love, only Love sits in your heart
And so fear has no place. ~Sri H.W.L. Poonja, Papaji

Gentle remembrance descends upon us as leaves fall from a tree, eventually touching the earth whence they came. We return to knowing the love that is our true nature and the unity of all things. Therein lays ‘salvation’.

“Teach the children love.”

As a number 9, this New Year will be dominated by service for the highest good. Each individual will be called upon to be the best that they can be; to deliver the goods they have developed over much time and bring levels of healing to human consciousness that will lift us beyond the grip of centuries of habitual response patterns.
We will hear the one heart beat from the ocean depths, to the mountain peaks, in the hot desert winds. The cool of stillness will permeate the air we breathe and we will hear only the sound of the waves perpetually caressing the shore before disappearing back into the sea.

Wisdom shall prevail. Wisdom to know thy self in the silence where understanding is based on not knowing and deep love pervades all existence, is tangible, is continuous, is what we undeniably share from breath to breath. ‘Utopia’, the realm of the idealist, rises up and out of the illusion that individuals create to keep the ego company in the world where the need for many things drives the train; always climbing the hill.

2016 is a year to reinvent our language. On January 1, Mercury, planet of communication, the messenger, is at 29 degrees 31 minutes Capricorn. In the last moment of this sign, that is the master of structure that supports humanity, so evolved is the knowledge of this structure that it has begun to dematerialize. The old structure is no longer necessary. Instead it becomes something that embraces all of us in love not judgment. Mercury is trine to the Moon at 0 degrees Libra where the notion of individuality has been transcended. We accept emergence into the sea of peace and perfect balance.

As we reinvent our language we give our selves the opportunity to “reconnect” the receptors that plug us into the unwavering intelligence of the heart. We trust because that is what is most obviously the only thing to do and know that there is no effort required to Be here in love and delight.

Mars at the same time, at 28 degrees Libra, the warrior of love, squares Mercury and generates the energy to honor thy true Self; with sword of light illuminates the path of ease and draws in the power of grace to shake the roots that have shackled us to an experience of suffering here; the spiritual warrior everywhere aggressively promoting love and peace.

Words maintain their power of poetic storytelling and sharing of the experience here but no longer have our entire attention as what delivers truth. A compassionate gaze, loving gesture, a smile or a frown, a back turned against the cold and bleak urban silence speak louder than words.

“Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another,
not words.” ~ Rumi

Words spoken from the heart can not go far astray. The heart with ever beating pulse is the same pulse that beats in every heart and connects us to truth. The truth of being can not be described with words. Words have the potential to confuse and distract and yet this is our primary form of communication. The fewer the words, the simpler the statement, the closer we are to truth. The heart generates not from the past but from this moment to the next.

Words produce, like the spider, silken threads that lead us between periods of silence from this place to that where thoughts can conjure an infinite number of pictures that deceive and distract us from the truth which is without need of explanation. Silken threads that produce an energy imprint that travel through time.

Words, we chew on them as though they were delectable morsels that excite the palette and fill us up when in fact they can leave us perpetually searching and emaciated.

Words accompany us when the silence becomes unbearable and words then, from the mouths of babes and guru elevate us to breathe and ingest stillness.

Seeing delights us beyond words, is without judgment and moves us with ease and grace in the direction of this moment that happens to be, always, what is.

Seeing is the soul stretching its legs, taking ego by the hand and dancing through the night. In the morning it is apparent that under the stars, in the mysterious moonlight a wedding has taken place and at the subsequent banquet there is neither guest nor groom nor bride just a satisfaction uniting moment to moment.

Seeing allows us to wander without agenda touching, smelling, hearing as a human being, upright mammal, lost in the sensuality of an experience and ecstatic to do so. In the next moment there is clarity that such purity is truth, is this, no separation. I am what is sensed, all me/us, one—no separation.

“The observer is the observed.” ~J. Krishnamurti

One heart beat that we all hear and respond to even through the many layers of conditioning. From the deepest well from which we draw sustenance we find an endless source of love. The heart beat soothes us, calls us home and reverberates through time and space. There is awareness that ‘home’ is never not and this one has never not been, and has never not been the most perfect expression of source. With this realization love flows freely, endlessly, always has except that this mind has constructed such tales to obscure truth. And none of it matters because none of it is Real.

Love drifts, soars, meanders and dances in open spaces where flowers, yet to spring forth
will soon add their dazzling colors to a verdant landscape; in darkness to comfort the child in a moment of distress; in cities between the mortar and the meeting and in every nuance of expression that occurs in every interaction there is Love. Have we any reason to doubt our own existence as Love?

If there is a tarot card that guides us in 2016 we may consider the Fool 0. Empty headed, empty handed, except for the white rose of “spirit” and empty he stands at the precipice of not knowing. Love flows and he is willing to be moved by Love, with Love and for Love. He is Love and goes where he is called to go and to ‘do’ what he is called to ‘do’. There is no effort required here and in this we finally rest.

Wishing you the most exceptional 2016 of giving and receiving Love, Being and radiating Light. Namaste ~Anna

Happiness is…

Happiness is not a Pursuit (thoughts for December)

There exists a way of being that underlies and suffuses all emotional states, that embraces all the joys and sorrows that come to us. A happiness so deep that, as Georges Bernants wrote, “nothing can change it, like the vast reserve of calm water beneath a storm.” The Sanskrit word for this state of being is sukha.

Sukha is the state of lasting well-being that manifests itself when we have freed ourselves of mental blindness and afflictive emotions. It is also the wisdom that allows us to see the world as it is, without veils or distortions. It is, finally, the joy of moving toward inner freedom and the loving kindness that radiates toward others. ~Arun Gandhi from a forward to Happiness by Matthieu Ricard

When we suspend judgment and see with the eyes of grace wherein everything is an expression of Divine Wisdom, there is a beautiful rhythm that rocks us, guides us, moves us. We touch the untouchable, drink in the dry desert, hear the silence, feel the stillness and dance to our hearts content in a world of marvelous mystery and limitless creation.
There are no thoughts of past or future only the resounding vibration that permeates all creation, establishing without thought, harmonious resonance in which the Being is freedom to play in the endless field of possibility.

Happiness is not a pursuit but the natural feeling that abides when we step out of the mirrored corridor of physical existence that causes us to reel in confusion. With which image do I identify A., B., C., or none of the above? If you answer none of the above the illusion/confusion disintegrates like a disturbing image in a dream that dissolves when we awaken. An afterimage may linger but it is known to be without substance (i.e: ultimate reality that underlies all outward manifestations and change) just as when we awaken to our true nature, the mind is seen to be an accumulation of thoughts that populate emptiness and are without substance. Whatever the thought, it is based on the past and is not the result of observation of this moment.

In this moment without thought is that which cannot be described with words or apprehended by the mind. It requires no effort, no thing, to be in this moment. The simplicity of this allows the body to rest in a way that it has not for perhaps a very long time. For this moment we have relinquished any desire for control over or attachment to any thing and abide in peace.

You must choose between your attachments and happiness. ~ Adyashanti

Happiness is knowing that there is nothing in the relative world that can displace what is always present, unwavering even in the face of worldly events. When we are peace—what a place of stillness to greet that world! May each and every day be filled with peace of mind and loving heart; that our steps touch the earth and each other in a way that amplifies the essence of wholeness, oneness, the Absolute. Let December be about giving of thy Self and reveling in this pure joy.

Sagittarius is the dominate sign for December and exists almost completely within the constellation Ophiucus the healer, known as such for the association to Asclepius the Greek healer. In mythic lore Asclepius witnessed a snake bringing herbs to an injured snake whence he developed the powers to heal. As the story unfolds, Jupiter was dissatisfied with this potential gift; that humanity might know immortality so he slew Asclepius and placed him in the sky as the constellation Ophiucus.

The constellation is the healer entwined by an enormous serpent, the serpent being representative of ‘wisdom’, the knowing of Truth. In the tarot the constellation of Ophiucus is associated with the Tower, number XVI of the major arcana. Number 16 or 7 reduced, is the number of tests or trials. The Tower is where we accomplish the letting go of old beliefs and patterns that we might be free to know the immortality of being; that our true nature is always, not influenced by weather or time. The Tower is the material plane, the structure that we create that we might feel secure and still wend our way to ‘god’. Yet if we believe that through this, in any way, we might discover Truth we are not clear. It all comes tumbling down—eventually—and, it is an event that can elicit great joy in a seeker, as then one is truly free, touching ‘god’ in everything, seeing ‘god’ as everything; knowing that ‘this’ is I and there is nothing I need do to uphold ‘this’.

If an additional card were created for the Tarot deck, making it number 22 of the major arcana, it might be a heart, access to the eternal Om, the pulse that infuses every cell every where. In Hinduism Om is ultimate reality, the Absolute, god. It is what is once we have mastered the journey of duality, the physical World (No. XXI major arcana). The number 22 is a master number that symbolizes the mastery of duality. Once we know the nature of duality we are at once aware of our true nature.

Our fears may run deep. That which inhibits us from knowing Self may rear up at us during those moments when we seem closest to Self discovery. If we have the Courage and Strength (No. VIII major arcana) to proceed through each moment, no matter how excruciating it may seem, we find what lies at the ‘heart of the individual’, deeper than the deepest fear, abiding in stillness and peace is ‘that’, ‘that’ is.

Happiness is ‘that’.

Thank you for your presence and the love that you are. May your holidays be filled with happiness!

New Moon 06.16.2015: In Gemini. What is the message?

New Moon 06.16.2015 @ 25 deg. Gemini 07 min.
EDT 10:05 a.m. PDT 07:05 a.m.

new moon 06 16 2015As this New Moon is in Gemini we ask what is the ‘messenger of the gods’ up to? That is Mercury, ruler of Gemini (and Virgo) known as Hermes in Greek mythology, the son of Zeus, king of the Greek pantheon and Maia the eldest of the seven sisters that are the Pleiades. On the 11th of June Mercury went direct allowing us to resume communicative activity without delay or interference. In fact with Mars conjunct the luminaries for the next few days the intellect, razor sharp, may zip through tasks and seek more to do–especially anything that directs one toward the ‘big picture’.

The underlying structure of the New Moon at 25 degrees Gemini is an exact grand trine (3 planets 120 degrees from each other) involving Uranus in Aries (evolution and illumination), Jupiter in Leo (generously and compassionately spreading the word) and Pallas Athena in Sagittarius (wisdom and ‘defense’ of Truth or upholding Truth). Profound underpinning that energetically circulates the essentials of the ‘big picture’=illumination, compassion and Truth with ease and grace, the nature of a grand trine—energy moving in a continuous flow–a passion for eliminating that which is not balance and harmony. This is a fire grand trine so plenty of energy to move us along.

The nature of Mercury is changeability. The sign Gemini is mutable indicating an ability to move quickly from one experience to the next as we continue to dance our way through all that fascinates us here learning the art of detachment and continuing the journey.

Although 6 planets are mutable in this chart, Saturn returning recently to Scorpio (a fixed sign) from Sagittarius offers a serious anchor for those who might otherwise feel ungrounded and another opportunity to examine whatever lies hidden hindering our ability to leap when necessary. Saturn completes its retrograde motion August 1st on the west coast and August 2nd on the east coast at 28 degrees Scorpio 17 minutes. As Scorpio represents the cycle of humanity birth, death, rebirth and regeneration there is a desire to understand this cycle as a relative experience; that our true nature is that from which this cycle emanates, not the cycle it self. When we realize the essence of duality, our truth is simultaneously known.

Gemini, the twins, implies two whereas the Truth is ‘not two’. However, the experience of two is necessary in order to recognize the Absolute. Here two exist within one and the motivation toward dissolution of the notion of separation is what drives us to seek many experiences. At this time assistance to successfully attain our goal appears in Black Moon Lilith at 6 degrees Libra and conjunct the North Node (where we strive toward). In Libra the quest is balance in the environment that results in stillness in the inner environment.
Stillness, peace is the absence of thoughts to which we are attached that create ‘not peace’. The Black Moon, the darkest depths of space, inherently knows stillness and all that does not contribute to this looms large in our field. Almost with exaggeration does the influence of BML move us from ego based desire and fear toward a place of pure observation and living without editing what shows up on the screen based upon patterns from the past that have nothing to do with this present moment.

BML trines Mercury within a degree so that subliminal messages can be expected. It may not be obvious what motivates some of our actions over the next few days but we may be sure that these actions will be supporting our highest good. Therefore trust your self and any insights you have now and always. You will see clearly that this is the easiest, most graceful way to be here. Everything occurs even without our constant need to manipulate and control.

The message is to deeply focus on, not what moves and changes but that which does not; that which is the fabric of the fabric. The intellect that directs us, may carry us to the edge of what is known of physical reality but it can not take us to what we are and have never not been. When the intellect directing ceases to be the authority we are free to Be without the supervision of a limited source. We are free as unlimited source.

As always the planets guide and as we are all at various stages of the journey our directions will be interpreted accordingly. Honoring the way in which you find your self uniquely expressing on the journey is as essential as being on the journey it self. It is the experience we want and can do without the judgment. Even that however, if that is what is happening is okay. But why judge what we know to be perfect as an expression of the
Absolute, all that is. How can that be not okay?

Full Moon 06.02.15: 11 degrees Sagittarius

Full Moon @ 11 degrees Sagittarius 49 min. 12:19 p.m. EDT 09:19 a.m. PDT

There is such a thing as perfection…and our purpose for living is to find that perfection and show it forth….Each of us is in truth an unlimited idea of freedom. Everything that limits us we have to put aside. ~Richard Bach

full moon chart 06 02 15Limitation is a concept pertaining to duality. It is the result of thinking there is any one that may be limited. Limitation is a judgment and confines us to the never ending search for “perfection” when that is our natural state. If we think we are not, then naturally we will seek that. And as we perceive my self in relation to others then we will begin by seeking outside of our self for what will contribute to our sense of perfection. I must be more, better or different than I am now.

This Full Moon in Sagittarius is involved in a mutable cross (4 planets that square each other and two sets of opposition). Mutable relates to the quality of the signs these four planets occupy. Mutable signs allow change. They are flexible and apt to go with the flow; the wind that has no limitations. The wind in a windstorm has been used to describe a mutable grand cross. There is a great deal of tension inherent in a grand cross. It is a dynamic configuration that is highly motivated to seek resolution to the discomfort of the tension. In this case with the Sun/Moon in opposition, Neptune and Black Moon Lilith in opposition and all squaring each other the way to ‘peace’ is through recognition of Truth that lies at the ‘center’ of the square.

Deeply situated in a ‘place’ that transcends all of the thoughts that I am this or that or anything to do with a Grand Cross is the knowing that these thoughts are my limitation. In the Grand Cross I bump up against my self creating my self outside of or appending my true nature. In the windstorm the only ‘place’ to rest is in the eye of the storm, the center, the one place where I sit in stillness knowing that ‘this too shall pass’. It is just a storm. It tugs at the hair and clothing but has no effect upon “that” which is everything and nothing and exists still, even when the storm has passed. Let it be therefore and be “it” and unattached to the storm that ceases to exist as quickly as it arose.

With Neptune standing in opposition to the Black Moon Lilith there is a desire to defy limitation or ignore it as a manifestation of duality. Black Moon entices, draws from Neptune the greatest gift the ruler of Pisces offers and that is dissolution—of beliefs that structure our world. The solution is dissolution and in the environment that is the realm of this frozen giant, the winds that rage at 1500 m.p.h., the fastest in this universe, dust will never settle.

With Mercury and Mars conjuncting the Sun (All in Gemini. There are 8 planets of 11 in mutable signs) there is ample energy directed toward experiencing and then moving to the next experience with the result quickly arrived at—been there done that, been there done that and that—reminding ourselves as mercury is still retrograde that I’ve hit my head against the wall enough times to recognize the way through this is not any of the ways that I have tried in the past. And therefore, what is it?

By doing nothing except accepting what is, in this moment, as an expression of the Absolute Reality occurring in physicality. We think it is so difficult, that we need to bash into our selves to get it but the opposite is true. “Sit’ in silence and be free. Thoughts will come and go—so. They have nothing to do with me; that is Reality. All those thoughts are a product of the past and are not relevant here and now. Let the winds sweep you away and know that it has not the ability to alter “that” our true nature.

All the challenges that may arise as a result of any tension at this time are merely showing up as an image on a screen that I project based on what I deem to be real—that which I identify with; the accumulation of patterns that have fallen upon these shoulders that is all part of a story with which I identify—an illusion as there is no individual for whom this can be true. There is only ‘source’ everywhere and everything Being.

In the midst of clashing molecules form arises. We understand the eternal nature of the ‘abiding’ that precedes all physical existence.

Mutable=flexibility, going with the flow that allows all things to appear on the screen of reality and to quickly pass away.

Grand Cross=dynamic, motivation to resolve tension.

I’ve tried everything! What’s next? The realization that ‘I” am that which is still.

At 11 degrees we know that “we” is all one and make every effort, no stone unturned, to overcome the limiting confines of relative perception. 11 is a master number where we first grasp freedom beyond separation–not two.

March 2015 Full Moon in Virgo: Impeccable Insight

Full Moon 03.05.2015 @ 14 degrees Virgo 50 minutes 1:05 p.m. EST 10:05 a.m. PST

“The aspects of things that are most important for us are hidden because of their simplicity and familiarity” ~Ludwig Wittgenstein

full moon chart march 2015

When our attention turns inward and the mind ceases to judge, the ability to heal old wounds occurs as we provide a non threatening environment for release and expansion.
Slowly the structures that we have developed as a result of environmental conditioning relax and begin to collapse through broader vision.

As we proceed through the enlightening, transformative times of Pluto/Uranus in square aspect (the last exact one occurring 03.17 of this year), we benefit from this pervasive energy that moves us to eliminate the dross and to be inspired by the prospect of freedom. Freedom from the inhibiting beliefs that are ego centered and sourced from the past. As we are so aware there is only this moment that we experience now, anything else is not. All of our sense of identification is based on what we think we know of the past. If you put all of your memories in a box, in other words they cannot be accessed, how would you identify your self?

This Virgo moon may have great capacity for memory but the Sun opposite in Pisces just wants to let go—no boundaries, no inhibitions. Virgo’s tendency is to analyze. What it discovers at this time due to the lofty arrangement of planets is an expanded version of a former picture that was based on quiet, yet often judgmental introspection. If we continually judge our selves the resulting state of contraction is one from which liberation is quite impossible.

It is fortunate that Jupiter, gaseous giant is positioned to best guide us to a wider perspective, one of allowing and knowing that promotes openness. Semi-sextile (30 deg. separation) the Moon, trine Uranus and Venus and the apex of a Yod with Sun/Pluto at the base or sextile (60 deg. separation-a Yod involves 2 planets 60 deg. apart called an inconjunct or quincunx, 150 deg. separation, from a third planet-also known as the finger of God), Jupiter yields power at this Full Moon. As a planet that is associated with beneficial influence it would seem we are likely to shrug off insecurities and fears and inhabit enthusiasm and optimism for all of life and Being.

The Moon in Virgo will share an energy of surrender and service to the ‘highest good’ in this pursuit of what lies beyond the petty, mundane perception that we are limited to existence as this body/mind. The gift of Virgo is willingness to provide the necessary ‘research’ for furthering our ‘education’. The ability of Virgo to focus on any task to which it is set, results in a dedicated desire for that which serves the vehicle. Sensitivity to the external environment as well as the internal environment creates discriminatory action as regards people with whom we associate and food we choose to ingest.

With the outer planets also involved at this Full Moon, whatever stands in the way of discovering Self, the Truth of our essential nature, will be scrutinized and eventually ejected.

With awareness growing we will continue to notice the illusory nature of reality and persist in letting go of any notion that that is who I am. The inspired moment arrives when we realize that who/what we are is not anything that moves or changes or ceases to to exist. There is a long moment of deep satisfaction as we embrace Reality that includes a great deal of not knowing. My beliefs do not serve me. What then without them? Give your self time to explore the possibility that there is no answer to your questions or rather that there is only one answer to all of your questions and that is the Absolute, one essence; that which is everything and nothing.

As we stand and gaze in adoration at the Full Moon consider that the power with which it mesmerizes us is also leading us to deeper inner reflection that inspires us to a larger vision and greater understanding of what constitutes the human being. This understanding unfolds perhaps slowly at first but quickens as we sift through layers of thought that cease to ring true. And as is also Virgo’s preference, there is little desire to embellish or include unnecessary factors that complicate an efficient resolution to any situation. Be prepared for a few simply poignant days.