Full Moon 02.03.2015: What is your deepest desire?

Full Moon 02.02.2015 @ 14 degrees Leo 48 minutes 06:09 p.m. EST 03:09 p.m. PST

Waves of silver light,
Full Moon devours everything.
My cup sits empty.

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Leo rules the 5th house of the astrology chart and represents the place where we
express self, realize self, create, procreate and frolic in romantic bliss or fulfill sexual desire. The state of one’s 5th house influences all of these areas of one’s life. The extent to which you find your self occupied with these affairs will reflect the sign on the house cusp and aspects to planets in the house etc.

For this Full Moon in Leo (conjunct Jupiter) allow your self to fully express what your heart desires. Jupiter, planet of optimism and good will, higher purpose and expansion will assist the moon to connect with generosity and benevolence; what lies there often unspoken for fear of…It is a time to pour forth and have gratitude for the deeper aspect of one’s emotional nature. Feeling what is there is a great gift here if we have the courage to allow these feelings to surface.

There are no mistakes. Be sure to trust that whatever arises is coming from a place that has no judgment or expectation. The freedom you feel will eventually provide you with peace. You know inner stillness and all doubt subsides. With this moon involved in a yod, finger of god, with Chiron/Mars and Pluto in sextile, there is pressure to resolve and heal whatever emotional wounding may have limited you in the past. Uranus trining the moon is extra emphasis to let go the attachment to whatever pattern no longer serves you. Ultimately that would be the pattern that says I am this body I am this mind—but one step at a time. The whole point of this is not to expect necessarily, instant results but to gently proceed as is your natural inclination—with the blinkers off. The Truth is right in front of us and really it would be hard to pretend we can’t see it. Duality is a nice experience but maybe its time to wake up and see that ‘nothing’ and ‘everything’ are actually the same thing.

Not only does Uranus in Aries (forceful? Yes) grace us with enlightening gestures but Pallas Athena in Sagittarius creates a grand trine in fire that has energy to motivate us all toward brilliance—shining our light from source, wisdom and knowing that even for a split second may be the ah, hah moment from which you never look back! There is a moment of Truth in the deepest desire of our hearts that will not go unnoticed or unfulfilled in some way.

Even if you think or feel like nothing is happening you can be sure that on some level we are all being given an opportunity to allow, and bask in the light of pure Being. It requires absolutely nothing but perhaps immense gratitude for life and being alive.

A Full Moon like a reflection of the soul swallows one whole. Immersed in a limitless pool without thought there is only peace and the everlasting knowing that I am “that”.
As one will divide the water through movement, still no sound permeates the still air. In Reality there never is separation.

Full Moon 01 04 2015: Cancer and going Deeper

Full Moon January 04, 2015 @ 14 deg. 31 min. Cancer 11:53 p.m. EST 08:53 p.m. PST

There is nothing you can see that is not a flower; there is nothing you can think that is not the moon. ~Matsuo Basho, 17th century poet

full moon chart 1 4 15Last year began with a New Moon in Capricorn literally the opposite to how this year begins with a Full Moon in Cancer. 2014 began with the energy and influence of Saturn
immersed in Scorpio leading a chart intent upon peeling away and finding the essential ‘structure’ beneath. With Saturn in trine aspect to Black Moon Lilith conjunct Jupiter we could not help but examine the hand that rocks the cradle, questioning the role of the hand; aware of its function and therefore free of its influence.

The new cycle includes liberation from dependency. And now we approach 2015 from an emotionally more mature place with greater awareness of our motivations. In the dawning of a new year we are treated to a realization via the moon in its own sign of Cancer as it opposes the sun and squares the north and south node; that the ‘path’ to unity (north node in Libra), and beyond suffering is through recognition of the completeness of the individual self (south node in Aries) and in need of nothing external to Self as Self is everything.

The deep feeling nature of Cancer as it ‘sees’ via the inherent confident knowing of Capricorn provides a glimpse of Reality that offers ultimate security as there is nothing missing and there is nothing to do that will alter this Reality. Meanwhile it is observed that everything else changes and is temporary.

The potential is for becoming flexible and flowing with the innate rhythm that permeates all things. Gratitude for being here to witness and experience everything that occurs and for the awareness that arises as a result of surrender. Surrender that is a result of no longer being convinced that I am right. (based on the 5th harmonic of this Full Moon chart that has 6 planets in mutable signs including the sun/moon). The potential is going with the flow.

The test is taking the initiative to step forward in this authenticity and to shrug off the tendency for repetitive expression based on the past. In this moment there is only this reality. In this moment everything exists simultaneously as an expression of the Absolute: def.= free of external references or relationships, not limited in any way. The test is in letting go.

The service is through persistence, maintenance, single minded focus and determination to uphold that which has been gained. To deepen the roots of knowing and share the wisdom that resides in abundance in the heart of our being. (based on the 9th harmonic chart where the sun/moon are in fixed signs). The service is in Being.

The harmonic charts are a slice of the natal chart that are arrived at by division of 360 degrees by 5=72 deg. The septile aspect, 7=51.4—deg. The quintile aspect, 9=40 deg. The novile aspect.

At 14 degrees Cancer this Full Moon is influenced by the star Sirius at the same location, the brightest star in the heavens. Sirius has a long history as a navigational point and by its rising just before the sun, a precursor of the flooding of the Nile. What is it we are being guided toward and what abundance will be the result of this journey? To answer this question consider the role of the outer planets in this chart. At 12 or 13 degrees they promote freedom, independence and awakening (Uranus 12 deg. Aries), elimination and transformation (Pluto 13 deg. Capricorn conjunct the sun) and healing (Chiron 13 deg. Pisces) as they aspect directly the Sun/Moon axis.

This is not new of course, the square for example between Uranus and Pluto has just occurred for the 6th time. The 7th and last aspect is in March of this year. These planets have an ongoing relationship of evolving consciousness the results of which are evident in Truth arising.

Neptune, the planet that urges one to go deeper and creates apparent confusion in relation to ordinary reality is at 5 degrees Pisces and in this Full Moon chart opposes Black Moon Lilith and conjuncts the point of fortune.

What this means is discovering the Truth that lies beneath the fear (Black Moon Lilith) of our own nature; in some way confronting the fear of annihilation. This is our greatest desire and where we will find greatest fulfillment (point of fortune). With the BML in Virgo, the objective is to realize one self as perfect or absolute, not in need of anything; that is a dualistic objective, attaining what we think we lack. Neptune stands as the mirror in this opposition, ‘you are not what you appear to be’. In other words you are not your mind/body but that which is when all else has been defined. The nebulous quality of Neptune results from the minds inability to comprehend its meaning which lies beyond relative experience.

The opposition of Neptune and BML is squared by Saturn at 1 degree Sagittarius so that focus and determination are added to a desire to know Self. There is no fear or hesitancy with Saturn in Sagittarius but rather a persistent calling to show up in authenticity. Old patterns of authoritarianism are replaced with a longing to disseminate Truth and share the light. The arrow that Sagittarius directs upward has the potential to illuminate as it crosses the skies and expands our vision. This supported by Mercury, Venus and Mars in Aquarius the sign of freedom and enlightenment. How we think and communicate, what we want and how we act become communal or collectively centered. Personal acquisition makes little sense. We open up even more to this experience as one with everything and in the big picture find peace in knowing it is all Love. Deep abidance in the heart confirms this.

During these several days before and after this Full Moon in Cancer express gratitude for the guidance you receive, the abundance that is everywhere in your life and the gift of being here with open eyes!

Thank you and blessings for this amazing life.

2015: The year of Mastery!

Only one who devotes himself to a cause with his whole strength and soul can be a true master. For this reason mastery demands all of a person. ~Albert Einstein

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The topic for 2015 is mastery! = number 8. Last year, a 7, was a string of tests and challenges presented by Saturn as it proceeded through Scorpio focusing on the ‘nitty gritty’. What is revealed is the bare bones of the individual self; what is driving us home at this time. Whatever is the next step in the unfolding, we do that with mastery!

The 8th major arcana card of the tarot deck is Strength. It exudes calm confidence as many tests have already been successfully completed. The taming of the beast puts one in a place of no longer being controlled by the ’ego’, free to create in the moment unencumbered by patterns based on the past. The clearest representation of this symbol is found in the classic Rider-Waite deck. The card is a simple illustration of the mastery of an aspect of human nature requiring integration and balancing in a non forceful way.

Saturn moved into Sagittarius on the 23rd of December! We are on the way to disciplined but bold and determined expression of truth, wisdom and authenticity! However, considering the often unyielding nature of Saturn we should be prepared also for the continued assertion of beliefs that still motivate various cultures and organizations. In Sagittarius is a surety that can promote radical behaviour for the sake of the cause. Mastery of self that leads to awareness of Self and the subsequent dissipation of suffering.

Mindfulness that we create with clarity and re-engaging the power of discernment so that the individual is freed to make decisions that serve the highest good. Though this is the year of the ‘sheep’ we will not be led. We are talking about the ferocity and determination of the mountain goat, the big horned sheep that perch confidently on even the narrowest ledge. Successful in business and community cohesiveness. If you choose confrontation you will find your self butting heads with the wind. Therefore establish no mind, aikido mind and dance with the Self.

The topic for 2015 is Love—there is nothing else—and you as an individual expression of that, nothing more, nothing less.

So what about love? Now we come to the deepest mystery…Always unconditionally there is love. When this is seen, even the most ordinary moment becomes vividly alive. ~Richard Sylvester

What we ‘do’ with that expression is the most natural thing possible. It is not possible to not be a natural expression of that. To say that I seek to know my ‘true’ self is impossible. This is it, in this moment now. As Richard Sylvester says, “We want what is with a cherry on top.” The cherry is a representation of the ego exerting itself. It is a complete redundancy. I know this to be everything but I want more?

In the meantime we traverse the moment on our way to realization of this Truth and the glorious sense of freedom resulting from knowing there is nothing that I need do to make anything happen. We stop suffering.

In suffering, I am something. In understanding, I am nothing.
In love, I am everything. ~Rupert Spira

So what are we doing here? Knowing liberation, savoring every step toward complete liberation. Every time ‘I act’ in authenticity and awareness “I’ experience freedom. Realizing it adds to this sense until there is no awareness of any difference between anything and another thing. It is aware, awake and love.

Do we continue to create a story here? Yes, until we are no longer dependent upon that story. What is it about 2015 that might seemingly further us in awakening to seamless existence? The ability to master the chaos or illusion is strong this year. Each individual has the potential to step out of self judgment and insecurity to fully embrace the gifts and talents that most serve this individual and in turn the collective. Effective leadership and conscious interaction determine a more balanced and peaceful way of engaging here.

We will see that nothing stands still and that therefore there is nothing to which we can attach our selves or that whatever we are attached to has little meaning in the evolving landscape. The recognition that really, nothing has meaning is a beautiful introduction to a road less traveled perhaps, but none the less one that has called to all of us throughout our experience here. When it is the only call one hears we add our footprints to those who eventually gain great clarity and the opportunity to reflect this light to others. 2015 is therefore, also a call to those who teeter on the edge of this Reality; to gather the light and dispel the chaos. The major arcana card that depicts this notion is the 20th card Judgment.

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The souls rising from the coffin have heard the angelic trumpets sounded and once this has occurred there is no turning back. The rhythm that is our essence is felt increasingly, impelling us to deeper and deeper realization that happens now as the natural outcome of deleting all ‘clothing’ from days, weeks, years and centuries gone by. There is a moment of rejoicing as one comes into head on collision with that which we have most desired—liberation from the illusion—we have awoken! Every year is a grand year in which to experience illumination. 2015 however has the highly advantageous position of following upon all that has been accomplished before.

In love, mastery and wisdom greet the sunrise of this day! And blessings for inner peace.

The angel for 2015 is Araquiel: master of earth.
The color is silver/lemon.
The elements are fire and ice.

The turning point February 8th.

Full Moon 12.06.2014: last of the year

Full Moon 12.06.14 @ 14 degrees Gemini 18 min. 7:27 a.m. EST 4:27 a.m. PST

“Nature with equal mind, sees all her sons at play, sees man control the wind, the wind sweep man away.” ~Matthew Arnold (natal moon at 23 degrees Gemini)

full moon dec 2014The chart for this Full Moon in Gemini is dominated by a mutable cross. The four mutable signs are Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo and Pisces. Qualities of the Mutable Cross include changeability, integration and transcendence that occur as human beings become more aware of a need that may not be satisfied by anything external to one self. It is said that, the mutable cross conditions the common herd, transforms animal man to an aspirant. Aspirant or aspiration referring to: the greatest gift we can offer the world is our aspiration for endless progress and self-perfection. Through our ascent in consciousness, the world around us ascends. (gurusoftware.com)

The planets and points involved in this Full Moon represent a rather profound movement of energy from some very old and deep fears to a place of healing, recognizing the Self as unlimited and knowing that there is no separation, God and I are one. To begin, there can be a desire to step out of the illusion that we have experienced over and over again. This arrived at through weariness of hitting one’s head against the wall repeatedly. In a grand square, that is a cross, it can seem as though we keep running into the same ‘dilemmas’ without rest, e.g. apparently being taken advantage of by other people and rarely receiving what you think you want no matter how much you give to others.

The Sun/Moon in opposition, when finally we become aware that there is nothing outside of my self that is not me or my true nature. Sun in Sagittarius, all beliefs that would limit one from knowing Truth are revealed to be products of a past that do not exist in this moment. Moon in Gemini, the emotional experience is fleeting, not deep. Memories gain little foot hold here. Feeling the moment or being aware of what is right now is facilitated by this opposition. Squaring this axis of innocence and creative expression, are Chiron, the wounded healer and the Black Moon Lilith—quite a pair! Chiron in Pisces since May 2010, focuses our attention to the wound that lies between the warp and weft of humanity. All the stories that have been told since language first emerged, have woven the fabric we experience here that has certain flaws or the potential to shroud us in illusion.

Those stories are finding fewer footholds in our consciousness. They are being recognized as stories rather than truths by which we are obligated to conduct our selves. The notion of suffering as part of the human condition has new light cast upon it. We are enjoying life in ways that we have not allowed our selves the pleasure of in centuries past. The Black Moon Lilith spurs Chiron into an expediated healing process by reflecting that our wounds so easily deny us ‘access’ to Truth. One must be brave enough to explore the depths of nothingness that BML is in order to gain freedom. BML is a point in space not a planet or an asteroid where the shadow of the moon at its furthest from the earth stops. The focal point of a shadow in dark space—our fears run rampant here and yet when we embrace the meaning of this point we see that it is an eternal place, and as it is nothing also contains everything. There is enormous light in the deepest, darkest aspect of existence.

A mutable cross, nothing sticks, the breeze is apt to cast off any notion that desires to cling or even remain stationary. We know that everything on this planet is temporary and that is not my true nature. My true nature is what remains always ‘unaffected’ by any occurrence, event or doings of any human being.

Mercury conjuncts the Sun in Sagittarius; we know the mind as servant and find mastery over thoughts. This guided by a Uranus/Mercury/Sun trine. Illumination is for all those ready to receive. Mars just into Aquarius at 1 degree; innovative, ingenious, visionary, confident utilization of energy to benefit the collective. A quintile to Uranus (72 degrees-5th harmonic, potential for human creativity) ensures the elevated expression of this Mars. Moon/Mars sesquisquare (135 degrees-a do or die aspect). Accidents will happen if we do not pay attention. Don’t get distracted! Uranus and Pluto in exact square. De-structuring continues as this square moves closer to its final square that occurs in March 2015. Uranus and Pluto both aspect the Sun/Moon emphasizing the dissolution of patterns whether we like it or not.

If we keep in mind that liberty is the final outcome none of what we appear to lose seems to have much relevance. Jupiter, growth and Saturn responsibility, squaring off in fixed signs contribute some needed practical grounding to this chart. As anchor they ensure that wisdom and discipline guide us to being here in physical reality in a way that serves all of us.

As the last Full Moon of the year let us not forget to express gratitude to our selves for the amazing persistence we have in leaving no stone unturned in our quest to know Truth. And to the synchronicities that inevitably find us in the right place at the right time to receive exactly what we need in any given moment. And to our acceptance of what is in this moment as being the perfect expression of the absolute—could not be more, better or different. May our sails be filled with the wind of change that inevitably carries us home.

Good Monday Morning…one day after

Greeting you one day after but with a message for this Full Moon tomorrow: practice  not taking things personally. In a time that could be fraught with contention, it is wise to just observe another’s behaviour knowing that it has little to do with you–if there was a you for it to have anything to do with. We are each a screen upon which we project what is being experienced in any moment that may be based upon input from various past but related experiences that might not involve you in any way at any time. Is this something you want to attach to in a way that causes discomfort or down right suffering? Probably not.

The issue of there not being a YOU–it does not mean that the physical body and the mind do not exist, it means that as something separate from the Absolute, they do not. The Absolute is referred to as “all that is” because? Well, because it is everything. That means “I am everything”–no separate existence; it is not possible.

Two Steps Of the Journey by Mahmud Shabistari

The journey of the pilgrims is two steps and no more:

One is the passing out of selfhood,

And one toward mystical union with the Friend.

(Sufi poetry abounds with symbolism so that the term Friend refers to the One or Absolute presence. It was a protective measure lest they be named ‘infidels’.)

Full moon In Aries, October 8 2014: Do we have a choice?

Full Moon October 8, 2014 @ 15 degrees 5 minutes Aries 06:50 a.m. EDT
3:50 a.m. PDT

full moon oct 8 2014 chartFull Moon October 8, 2014 @ 15 degrees 5 minutes Aries 06:50 a.m. EDT
3:50 a.m. PDT

“The dramatic message seems abundantly clear: exposure to profound illumination is exposure to definite risk of radical transformation of one’s material existence or security. The willingness to risk is not separate from the openness to awakening. One who is not willing to take this risk—of possessions, career, family, security, stature, future and past—has encountered the first barrier, the eye of the needle.”—Robert Wolfe, Living Nonduality

This Full Moon is aggressive, feisty and tempestuous! It has the potential to blast us free of tenacious emotional and behavioral patterns as Uranus, the great awakener conjuncts the moon and together they trine Jupiter and Mars–all in fire. Burn baby burn! The sense of security dearest to us may not be what serves us. In a flash of inspiration whatever it is that stands between me and the freedom to express my self fully (Aries “seeks self”) is heaved into the flames without hesitation. Mars in Sagittarius is impetuous, bold and thinks nothing of hurling one self over the edge of the cliff to deal with the consequences later. Well, guess what? There are no consequences. Not that makes any difference really.
Perhaps the ego suffers a little bruising as I give up thoughts that I should be this or that, something more, better or different; just more expectation that creates disillusionment.

Now there is the clarity to stand up to the ego and free one self from long held believes about the nature of our existence (none of which is true). This is accomplished with a great deal of enthusiasm (again thanks to Aries). Too long have we dawdled between what we erroneously assume is our responsibility here and really living life! Jupiter in Leo and ruler of Sagittarius suggests in a very loud voice that we go for it and express from the heart. It would be possible to become enamored of one’s own greatness, bigness, importance with this trine except for the very fortunate square between Venus in Libra and Pluto. Venus in Libra is about fairness, balance and harmony and Pluto in Capricorn is not likely to allow any desires for self promotion to stand in the way of real liberation. That is the whole point here.

This is another wake up call set for repeat. We are taking this rising into awareness seriously. As of October 4th, Mercury is retrograde in Scorpio, couldn’t get more perceptive and adept at finding what does not serve an individual; to release them selves from the discomforting thoughts of mortality. When Mercury went retrograde, the moon was in Aquarius ruled by Uranus the planet that now conjuncts the moon and insists on evolution for our highest good. We will shine our light. It is our deepest desire to dwell in the heart of the true Self. This takes us back to the Pluto square Venus aspect that eliminates individual desires that eventually leave one feeling lost and lonely once we have cycled through a pile of them to say, “now what?”

And if we consider that as Mercury went retrograde Saturn was squaring the moon in Aquarius we get an even clearer picture of what this Full Moon illuminates for us as well as this period of Mercury retrograde; that is disciplined and focused attention upon overcoming limiting emotional dependency. Anything I take personally has the potential to create separation in which case I can perpetuate the vicious cycle of neediness.

Of course there are a few side effects of the energy surrounding these few days that we may want to prepare our selves for. A fire grand trine is more energy than some can handle especially if the chart is predominantly water or earth. The essence of Truth, the rising of awareness may impel one to be rather blunt.

As the energy builds the momentum could drive you to excessively straightforward expression that seems foreign to your tongue. You may unwittingly offend dozens of people as you travel, a whirlwind unleashed and unstoppable, devouring all that moves and is unmoving only to find that there is no devouring taking place. All that lies in my path has always been a part of me—I am that. Finally, I lack the social conditioning to delude my self further. Thank God for that! Or my Self. Same thing. I am eternally grateful for continuous presence beyond all else and my determined-ness to wrestle the ego into a place of subservience long enough to know freedom, the joy of release.

It feels so good! Think about mending the scorched and tattered field of experience later. Maybe when I look back I will see there is nothing that requires mending; nothing out of place or in need of smoothing or soothing. So deep has the mind travelled of recent that words are not a factor in the consideration of any action or reaction. The mind dwells in a place of tranquility and stillness a place of thoughtless observance–peace. This is not a quiet Full Moon or one that is celebrated with the usual appreciation. This Full Moon demands our unwavering dedication to the light within. We may oooh and aaah at its splendid magnificence but deep within we know that it is my self that shines as brightly. It is my self that captures my attention as a shining luminary, as the object of my apparent desire. We need not move an iota to capture the essence of the one who stands staring with adoration at the silvery orb that has kept us company throughout the centuries and more.

Good Monday Morning…Aren’t we all the best!

It doesn’t matter what appears to be going on here or there or what the mind is conjuring. There is pervading stillness, emptiness in which this occurs that is always. This is what lures me home. This is home.

Aren’t we all the best!
No matter what we are doing,
Doing our best
Or, as always, moving toward
That, even if at a snail’s pace
While everything else leaps through
space at speeds greater than
our minds may imagine
we dawdle along
thinking
doing
in earnest
that which provides us
with a momentary sense
of satisfaction
a moment of stillness
the mind erupts in a
tiny smile
light in the silence
home in the heart.